How you fall from...High

How you fall from …high?

1. you cant stay in one place;
2. time is stretching endlessly
3. you draw vivid pictures in your mind of insanity
4. you miss something and nothing can complete this emptiness
5. you are anxious and moving from room to another
6. you love thinking about impossible realities.
7. you become split in two different personalities.

So happily you are falling. 

nina nour *

-  1  -

Your galaxy

Your galaxy so deep and vast

And dark, stretched far away

Connects through the time

With my little galaxy,

You swallowed my stars,

My milky way, all my past moons,

All my present planets,

Now I`m so safe within

Your perfect magical space –

Stars stomach. 

nina nour *

-  1  -

Looking at my lotus flower

You were looking at the lotus flower

In my hair, so dreamily,

We were flying as children

On the wings of time and ignorance,

Smell of loneliness, of space and freedom.

Silence and lotus white blossom,

You are piercingly looking at me,

As if I m a star, a book, a planet

That you are willing to discover.

You looked down innocently,

When our eyes met in a mystical ray

Of azurite light.

Light from the future. 

nina nour *

-  1  -

Falling in Inspiration

Why I fell in…inspiration?

What causes this deep soulful touch?

My plaited hair, my forbidden coffee,

My green cotton dress, my world?

My fears, my thoughts and tears?

No, that’s just you – my mind loves

To soar in your forbidden city –

Azurite, golden and blue

I dwell here aside in my garden,

But my freedom is with you. 

nina nour *

-  1  -

Surrounded by

Surrounded by mystical stones,

By my rose quartz friends,

My drafts and my old drawings,

Black and white fading photographs,

My angels and my broken dolls

I was far away from your cold presence

Unaware of your existence in blue,

I tasted the freedom of loneliness –

Now you are coming – sudden tremble,

Your face with loud quietness

Moved the many layers of time

You came just today to draw out my shadow. 

nina nour *

-  1  -

Green Hiding

As if our souls agreed to meet

There in the mountains high

On the top of eternal pines

With magical silence

Listening to ghostly whispers,

Breathing from horizons

Serenity and blue hawk,

Our time dissolved to

Nothingness and hiding

Into the green adoration,

Stay here, my brother. 

nina nour * 

-  1  -

Blue hiding

This time I`m so open and hiding

But I cant hide my glittering eyes,

This time you were so honest,

So much truth in your stories,

Your looks are still hiding  –

But you cant hide your burning arms.

We are trilogy of true presence of  the past,

True melancholy in our laugh,

True mystery in our belonging.

Your arms were open

But I didn’t hold you,

I was dying in my longing for you

Without sound, hopeless happiness

Just to be here and see your eyes.

Then to be forsaken to another world

Where I could hide for ages in my mystical cave. 

nina nour *

-  1 au  -

Blue and Golden

Blue and golden are your colors

Of science, wisdom, warrior of mountains,

You loved the flight of the hawk

Roaming with open wings,

Followed by your hungry eyes.

Blue and golden – wisdom, strength

Royalty, deep thoughts, imagination

Mystical power, longing… but love?

This word is forbidden for you now. 

Blue is your hidden reality,

Your home, presence and words

Your calming voice, your speech

Are in dark shining blue, 

Encircling me with safe light

So long I was searching that

Nothingness, that peace, 

Disappearance of time with you

in my eyes you see our embrace –

golden memory from future space. 

nina nour * 

-  1 au  -

Azurite (4)

Azurite, please tell me

Your real name,

You seem so open to me

But sill I feel you re hiding

So many secrets

Beneath your strong surface

Your eyes are fiery burning,

Or just I draw it so in my mind

Your embrace is so cold and so hot too,

Like a volcano erupting to sky,

(or am I just vulnerable poetess,

draw that fantasy in my mind?)

Are you so cold, or deep fire is

Flooding beneath the cold rocks.

Azurite, come again, reveal your shine! 

nina nour * 

-  1  -

Azurite (3)

The day is stretching long

Like an endless metro line,

I traveled to you yesterday

Today again alone

Behind the mirror

Under blankets,

Covered with little emptiness

With cotton of longing,

With sweet desire for

Something unknown –

The river of life is flowing

To the north,

But why I still walk to south

Again and again I return

To find my hidden sound of Self. 

nina nour *

-  1   - 

Azurite (2)

Eating figs here

Sweet day dreaming clouds

Wind in my garden of longing

Lonesome afternoons

One by one fruits melting

In my mouth,

Thinking of your look

I devote to broken memories

Pieces of past mirrors,

I see you there you exist still

So I have a happy smile –

But here I`m just collector

Of my own dreams.

Wind bells are singing 

Outside in balcony. 

nina nour *

-  1au - 

Azurite (1)

I sat by this river

Just day before yesterday

My thoughts drifting

Like a silvery thin smoke up

To the green covered hills

Of the mountains

I was not alone,

the silence in the air

Signified your purity

And your puzzled face

Your smile, your looks

All that so quiet

Reflects me now loudly. 

the time was

So vast stretched to

Nothingness. 

 with your eyes

Sparkling in my sight. 

Here in my misty room

time is frozen and still

time has turned to longing

for white forbidden skies,

for your gentle fingers,

melting on my blushed cheeks.

We belong to reality beyond horizon. 

nina nour *

-   1   -

Dust and Sun

Don’t come in my sacred place

Its forbidden for you,

You stepped into it with feet of wolf

When my smile was still innocent

And my beauty of shining love,

Days are now scattered like cards

In a silly game, turned to yellow dust

And just my heart became rays of light –

Going back all the universes to its Core.

Thank you, pain! 

welcome to my new Sun. 

n.nour *

- 9 -

Dust and Rain 2

Not from you I want run –

From myself, my shadow,

My home, my belongings,

My duties, my love,

What is here to be mine?

As a fairy, I have no roots

in this forgotten ground

Why is this place so cold,

Souls are so huge, giants;

They do not see the ant,

The little bird, the little bee

In front of their shoes –

Ready to smash you;

The dust is the air they breath;

Their food are black coals

Endless industries, machines;

Just here I need the whisper

Of my flowers and crystals,

Bated in my blue room

I`m child of sorrow and rain. 

n.nour *

- 9 -

Dust and Rain

So many things I want to say,

I want to write tones of paper

With the blue stamps of tears

No need of envelope –

Meaningless effort

My words just slipped from the edge

Of the horrible silence –

Sliding down the road

Covered with dust.

Dusty are the souls I meet

As if we live in a desert

As if we just beg for little

Love as blue rain

Falling in another skies,

Where we are washed away

Pure and cleansed

As we need to be

Belong to our God. 

n.nour *

Autumn thoughts 4

Only the autumn flowers

Can see how beautiful you are,

With frost in your hair

Singing lark in your chest,

Sad eyes with honey color,

You love your solitude

And always dress dark blue

Your hair waving on the wind

Covered with rusted orange

Like the silent speaking leaves. 

n.nour *

Autumn thoughts 3

In my soul there is a cloud

Sometimes light gray, blue

Green, white opal color,

Changing its form inside

So my outer forms changes

full of deep sadness and rain

collecting water from rivers

around, lakes

sometimes this cloud so full

covered with moon sparkles

bursts in tears …

and drops cool autumn rain

on my red wounded heart-leaf. 

n.nour *

نینا

Autumn thoughts II

I don’t want you in my life,

Strange soul of hedgehog

Your needles were too long

Hurting my inner child,

I don’t want your wisdom

your faith, your strength

What they are for me,

If i`m not loved? 

The coldness

Of you steel reflecting eyes,

No compassion, even when

My heart cries, no emotion

Just deep hidden fire of pain.

I wont be ever your slave...

All I want now is freedom. 

n.nour *

Autumn thoughts I

Now days stretch slowly, long

Under autumn sky of rain

Our thoughts are trapped

As bees so diligent

In the hive of waking emotions.

The clouds swim gracefully

Dressed in light gray robes

Their wide long sleeves

Touching the sky and my face

Autumn clouds are priests

Whispering the truth for the world,

Do we really exist? 

Will our reflection remain?

Where our shadows move after?

We are children of God,

With lost innocence,

Wandering, expelled from the

Heaven and earth...

Our last hope is Love. 

n.nour *

Materials

We are not made of clay, nor of dust

You are from marble, strong

Standing the winds of time,

Cold, harsh, proud, glistening

In the dark shades, covered

With ancient grass, standing alone

Admired for your unchanged beauty.

I`m made of amber,

Soft, reflecting peaceful light,

Containing all memories 

Inside my transparent skin –

They are seen as insects and flowers.

I`m made of light and forgiveness,

Still shy, thoughtful, deep,

Turning to passing days

My world is now eternity.

You are made of timeless pain,

Your eyes remember every sight

Of earth, you wont forget

But your heart is now marble.

And your smile is carved so

Carefully, smile of the past love,

Remaining still, frozen in space.

n.nour *