Dust and Sun

Don’t come in my sacred place

Its forbidden for you,

You stepped into it with feet of wolf

When my smile was still innocent

And my beauty of shining love,

Days are now scattered like cards

In a silly game, turned to yellow dust

And just my heart became rays of light –

Going back all the universes to its Core.

Thank you, pain! 

welcome to my new Sun. 

n.nour *

- 9 -

Hiding heart

My heart is not lost,

It was just hiding

Inside jeweled box,

Which was inside

Another crystal box,

Inside another box

From amber stone,

Inside another little

Tiny little box of

Amethyst …

As my heart was missed

Here on this side,

Even so it shrank so much

To let myself hide too;

Until the storm outside

Passes by. 

n.nour *

Cloud of memory -1-

My presence here

Scattered cloud of pain

Distances between you

And me like stormy blue clouds

Spread to the horizons of hopes

Lies, love, lies, dreams

The battle field of our reality

Pouring down the tears of pain

Your pain as a thunder

My pain as rain,

Until we feel lighter and lighter

Steaming from ground, clouds

Going nowhere. 

n. nour *

*dedicated to a.

Dragon 2

When I first know you

your words were like

f i r e, your eyes were

like f i r e, they wanted
to melt me.
When I first know you,
you loved all in me,
you wanted to give me
your energy,
Instead you put me
in flames of your
heart, imprison my
soul fast,
You wanted to eat
every day piece of me
you liked tasting my
fingers of water.


When you first know me,
my words were fountain
of sparkling emotions,
my love was endless well
of Pure water for you,
When you first know me,
I didn`t see you`re Dragon
with red magic skin,
I was a spring of love,
forever flowing to you
embracing gently your

spirit and soul,

coming close to the
core of the fire,
but then...you lost
control, you lost
the sweet music of love,
our melody we have created
was broken,
whoever you are,
my Red Dragon, I still
love you,
Just give me back
my song!

Dragon

The sky was coloured

in dark red, like the



paint of blood,



There was a moon



and cherry clouds



above. I saw him


flying near the ground.



His scarlet red tail



swirling the air around,



Fire streamed from



his mouth,
all forest -burning in flames,



his eyes -attached to me,



without fear, I breathed



hardly, standing alone,



in my scarlet rose dress,



Silently waiting my death,



Silently wishing the rain



to fall from sky



like a saving holly water,



before me fainting...



Red Dragon came closer



to me. His eyes made



from deep fire wells -



I stretched my hands



to touch his hot face,



I was like little tree



from the forest,



in Love burning.

Existence

In the existence of time, breath of time, your fingers, arms, stretching to me...
your fingers touching my face, blindly...slowly..I`m made from special glass, you say,
you never can touch me inside...but you see inside me..you telling me :your thoughts are transparent, your skin is so thin, i can see the clouds in your head, remember Magritte? I can see the milk in you, the life, the tears, i see your body from inside...
can you feel all this space ? it `s so huge, out of the time...
can you feel my injuries, blood, organs, bones...
can u feel my time, creeping slowly from me.
without even words, the silence between our times
is enough
remember the head of the death woman,
my century? death from stones, open eyes
she was death even before...
this woman could be me, this woman Is me
under the stone pile,
some red strips of blood on her head...
is that me? this is decor ,but for real
theater of our actions, just I don`t see
where is the word : H U M A N
out of time

My Ocean 3

Deep blue ocean

with dazzling fishes

they smile to me

they make me swim

be hypnotized

be taken away

Its not dream

this place still

exist,

my warm ocean

my escape,

no island,

no earth near

I swim until

i get tired

and go down,

fall down slowly

to the bottom..

i rest,watching

the clouds above me

they have form

of the continents

They miss me too

I`m here

swimming, taking

my breath carefully

then I`ll fall

all water will come

in my lungs

I`ll dive deeper

i`ll see ocean

galaxies,

ocean stars

sparkling, in darkness

I turn into fish

with orange

yellow sliding

skin

i wont go to air

it hurts...

My Wind 2

My wind,

were you

in my fingers,

my hair,

sorrowful

moving slowly

all my words

are gone

i have no

words inside

my tongue

dont exist

I sink into

eternal

silence

of the dead

how much

I wanted this

death and

she came to me

I was so high

flying

as always

without to

notice the sharptrees

trying

to grab me in their

hands, and I fall

fall

fall

down slowly

as light leaf

asleep

deeply

without

memories

just Cold Sun

in the sky

My Wind 1

The darkness

inside me -

stretches its

endless hands

to your eyes

your deep eyes

like well,

like hypnotizing

wheel

spinning

circles of magic

in my heart

I`m lost

inside you.

ICE 3

Remembering

her tears drop

on his pale face

her tears -

in his frozen eyes,

no memories,

in his heart,

no passions

in his cold body,

like a beautiful stone

waiting for

its sculptor.

Remembering

This single tear

removed the

piece of ice

from his eye

A W A KEN:

Where I am?

He looked around

her tears flow

like a river -

You are at home,

my heart...

ICE 2

My black strong

wings

moved

your hair -

made you feel

cool puff of

the wind

Your smile

disappear,

from your eyes

flow tears,

I couldn`t

whisper

a word

I`m cool as

death

My black wings

touching

your shoulder,

Forgive me

you wont

feel sadness more

you wont feel

happiness too,

you wont feel

the heat of

the day,

the calmness

of the night,

Come with me

now,

I`ll make you fly

But never look back,

You are mine..

ICE 1

My green

transparent

wings

touching with

dreaminess

your face

your cheeks

made of glass

your mouth

made of marble

your eyes

crystalline

You can`t look

at my smile

it`s enough

you feel my

gentle wings -

I crossed all

this forest,

all sea,

all mountain,

because of you.

But you can`t

see me,

frozen statue...

Femina 8

Birds are
letters
in the sky,
angels
read them
and fly
with them-
we are the flock
from sentences,
read us,
reveal us!
****

The pain
as a red
poppy
in the field
over there,
from the wind
from the wind,
from….
blown away…

****

I`m passing
through the night
with desire.
I can`t be apart
from your
shadow
and your gaze,
your glitter
your silence
sink inside me.
I carry you away. *****

I love you
My violet
Shadow
Sea foam Turned into
Mist.

*****

Statue:
Her hands
are from marble,
they bend
from her
shoulders-
full of life
and brave,
cold
and fine
white fingers,
face,
glancing in
light.
You`re standing
right in front
of me
threatening
staring at me-
your marble eyes
sparkle
a woman
of Michelangelo.

****

And you didn`t
Answer me
And looked away
Over there,
You turned your eyes
To the window
To the street
Why me?

Femina 7

Your temple
beyond the hill
in the purple
forest, you are poured
with green flames
quiet
pieces of glasses
slide on your
surface,
that make you
apart
from me.

****

In red mirror
I see your laugh
your voice
is melting
after me.

****

You`re walking
next to me
walking
in silence,
hidden words
in the trees,
in the evening,
in your hair,
you`re walking
and thinking
in silence.

****

And a music
is spilling away
from your body,
looking tired
with always
wandering
eyes,
the emptiness
is not enough
for you-
freedom.

Femina 5

I said good-bye
to her
and flew away
to sough
where
the colorless
corn fields
run eagerly
into my skin
their growing
yellow
stems- I met her
again on
the morning.

I was kissing him
at the twilight
under the trees,
in the forest,
beyond the hill,
turned into
shadows
leaves.

****

June:
the baby
I feel
it`s nestled
deep inside me
tenderly
humbly
moving with
little hands.

****

Dedicate a song
to me-
a song for
a white
for summer
for winter
for the town
for me-
my face.

Femina 4

Music
piano
swiftly fine
fingers
on the keys
in black-
hands.

****

Come closer
and brake up
the glass
of the window.
traces
in winter path,
small footmarks
across the street,
through the
house
up to the
trash
container.

****

I see you,
I don`t know
how you look like,
how you sound,
how you laugh
how you take off
your clothes,
how you sneeze
how you think-
why I`m seeing you?

Femina 3

To P.

you were blown
to me
on the fragrance,
on the thoughts
on desire,
on the grass,
on the cherries,
on the milk,
on the body,
you are swimming
in the air,
carried To me…

*******

Water tank
with water bubbles
the sharp grass
is irritating
my face
bushes with
raspberry
wine
she`s not alone,
her hands
with soft tender
movements
pouring coffee,
pouring warm
water,
pouring milk
concentrated
slowly
without
touching me.

Femina 2

Moment
Silence .......
A bell
I stopped
Outside
Inside bell
You became
Deaf.

A memory
In the roses
At the sea
At the station
Travel
Among the
Sand hills,
Memory
Without
Truth
In one song:
Morning in
Light blue
Morning
Pure as a child

******
For a hundred
Time
I imagine
A kiss
With you…
We are melting
In tensed Pieces.

*****

I don`t know
Who is she-
And how she
Looks like
-in red dress.
Her hair is
Soft and wet?)
I don`t believe,
But I desire
My dream,
Child, sea, forest.

**** I`ll sing a song Loudly Hidden under Your clothes.

Femina1

Silence
I feel loneliness
and cold
and wind
and mist
when
the pears
turn into
blossoms.

****

Go on the
Moon path
And where it
Leads you
Is the Sea.

****
In love :
One, sometimes
Strange
Feeling
To the fortuity,
To the need
To the eyes
In green.

****
Almost tears,
But actually
Laughter
And sadness
Where are you?

Abstinensia 2

Sутрин-

в розово
като
дете
спиш
свита
на кълбо
в покой.
Вечер-
В синьо
Като
Цветя
Спим
Тъжни
С чашките
Надолу.

и ти си там
сега,
когато аз-
и ти си там,
завита с
одеало,
мъничка
и тъжна...
а аз сънувам
теб.

Безплодна
Градина
Отвъд
Тишината
Рисувам те
В себе си
С кръв.

аз съм дете
на слънцето
на поляната
на твоите
ръце
на тополите
на меланхолията
на екзистенцията
на гълъбите,
събирам в
стъклен съд сълзите си.