Existence

In the existence of time, breath of time, your fingers, arms, stretching to me...
your fingers touching my face, blindly...slowly..I`m made from special glass, you say,
you never can touch me inside...but you see inside me..you telling me :your thoughts are transparent, your skin is so thin, i can see the clouds in your head, remember Magritte? I can see the milk in you, the life, the tears, i see your body from inside...
can you feel all this space ? it `s so huge, out of the time...
can you feel my injuries, blood, organs, bones...
can u feel my time, creeping slowly from me.
without even words, the silence between our times
is enough
remember the head of the death woman,
my century? death from stones, open eyes
she was death even before...
this woman could be me, this woman Is me
under the stone pile,
some red strips of blood on her head...
is that me? this is decor ,but for real
theater of our actions, just I don`t see
where is the word : H U M A N
out of time

My waves

Lonely waves

come into the shore

of soul,

neglected,

abandoned

forbidden fruit

of the heart -

heart with the

shape of strawberry,

heart of loneliness

my waves striving

just to You,

to your

lonely shores

dark dusk around

no stars

just sound of your

waves,

in color of blood

your blood

on me,

My body is

sacrificed

into your waves

your endless sea

of pain                                               

your endless hug

reaching back to me                     

again and

again and

again....

emptiness

eternity,

Holiness

My Ocean 3

Deep blue ocean

with dazzling fishes

they smile to me

they make me swim

be hypnotized

be taken away

Its not dream

this place still

exist,

my warm ocean

my escape,

no island,

no earth near

I swim until

i get tired

and go down,

fall down slowly

to the bottom..

i rest,watching

the clouds above me

they have form

of the continents

They miss me too

I`m here

swimming, taking

my breath carefully

then I`ll fall

all water will come

in my lungs

I`ll dive deeper

i`ll see ocean

galaxies,

ocean stars

sparkling, in darkness

I turn into fish

with orange

yellow sliding

skin

i wont go to air

it hurts...

My Ocean 2

You are the sea
I swim inside you
like a fish,
golden sparkles
above me,
deep blue waves
inside water
How I feel like
fish?
as if i`m in the
stomach of big
fish
which is You,
the sea, wet
amazing,
shining...
bubbles sound
No other fishes
except me
I`m flying
swimming
feeling just calming
water                                      
How to forget
the pain of
the air outside...
I`ve tasted it
enough
My fish eyes
used to the wet
dark blue of you.

My Ocean 1

I am the fish,

the one who

swim in the red sea

I`m the first and the last

The one who

my Beloved

catches with

his hands

the one who many

wanted,

he touched my

scaly salty skin

He tasted me

he came inside me

like water.


* Fish like Christian Symbol
* Beloved
* water

My Wind 2

My wind,

were you

in my fingers,

my hair,

sorrowful

moving slowly

all my words

are gone

i have no

words inside

my tongue

dont exist

I sink into

eternal

silence

of the dead

how much

I wanted this

death and

she came to me

I was so high

flying

as always

without to

notice the sharptrees

trying

to grab me in their

hands, and I fall

fall

fall

down slowly

as light leaf

asleep

deeply

without

memories

just Cold Sun

in the sky

My Wind 1

The darkness

inside me -

stretches its

endless hands

to your eyes

your deep eyes

like well,

like hypnotizing

wheel

spinning

circles of magic

in my heart

I`m lost

inside you.

ICE 3

Remembering

her tears drop

on his pale face

her tears -

in his frozen eyes,

no memories,

in his heart,

no passions

in his cold body,

like a beautiful stone

waiting for

its sculptor.

Remembering

This single tear

removed the

piece of ice

from his eye

A W A KEN:

Where I am?

He looked around

her tears flow

like a river -

You are at home,

my heart...

ICE 2

My black strong

wings

moved

your hair -

made you feel

cool puff of

the wind

Your smile

disappear,

from your eyes

flow tears,

I couldn`t

whisper

a word

I`m cool as

death

My black wings

touching

your shoulder,

Forgive me

you wont

feel sadness more

you wont feel

happiness too,

you wont feel

the heat of

the day,

the calmness

of the night,

Come with me

now,

I`ll make you fly

But never look back,

You are mine..

ICE 1

My green

transparent

wings

touching with

dreaminess

your face

your cheeks

made of glass

your mouth

made of marble

your eyes

crystalline

You can`t look

at my smile

it`s enough

you feel my

gentle wings -

I crossed all

this forest,

all sea,

all mountain,

because of you.

But you can`t

see me,

frozen statue...

Cotton Clouds

He looked at my

face, without

seeing me, trough

my transparent skin,

inside my eyes deeply

He looked at me

like in a deep well,

He stretches his hands

upon me, like upon Sun,

Moon, God..

He wanted to cry,

but just he shout to me:

L I E R.

Magnolia 8

8.

One angel came

to her in white dress,

One angel gave

her white

oleander,

One angel made

her a sign,

came into her

dream, as nothing

can be the same

after that.-

Virgin in Blood.

Magnolia 7

7.

How we fight

for our faith,

our rights, our star

trough out the

animal Gods,

brake them into

pieces; never remind

me of them;

We sacrifice ourselves

to The One,

through them away

from earth

We sacrifice our

hands -

Kill them all!

We sacrifice our

children -

Go to war against

There are only two

possibilities:

when eye catch eye"

hate or Love.

Magnolia 6

6.

Our tribes wandered

long until the end

of the sea,

until the hills of

the Holly Mountain -

The Truth is hidden

in the four letters

of Almighty

the sound of letters,

containing

resonance from the

four elements,

four substances

of Human;

We are not the same-

We changed like

the river

like the dark sand-

faces, turned

into blossom,

sands of desert,

like Hairs, pouring

from...

Magnolia 5

5.

We can`t speak his

name -His Holly

Bones crake in

our foot marks;

all covered -

men shouldn`t cry!

We go on camels

our way to home

our home is world -

homeless.

Magnolia 4

Joseph :

She red a book

in the shadow

of a well

she red -

she saw the man

coming

shouting -

One outline of

humble man,

they through

into the well

they never saw

the woman there

she witnessed all

cried silently

for the sacrifice:

O, Brothers!

Cried his voice

from the depth

Why you hate me??

(He loves you)

Why you betrayed me?

(He loves you)

Why you sold me?

O, Brothers!

No one answered

only the wind and

the lonely tear

of woman -

she wasn`t there

but from the distance

of time...

Magnolia 3

3.

A woman kneed

in front of Him

beautiful woman -

soft long hair,

waving in gold brown

She washed his feet,

she wished them

with her hair

she never wisper a word,

just couldn`t keep

her tears;

She loved Him

with the purest

Love -

The fragrance of love

spread in the room..

Fragrance of

sandal oil,

rose, hibiscus,

lemon, cinamon,

apple,

Men looked her

in shock;

He shouted

Leave her!

She knows

who I am:

I`m the first and the last.

you never have me

on your side.

Magnolia 2

2.
And write on these
stones all words
of your law,
let your mind
on forgiving,
your hands
graving the stones
your spirit turns
to God Elohim
Then make from the
stones Your
place for
SACRIFICE

Magnolia

Biblical FLOWERS

1.

My sister, please

forgive me -

I saw you,

white skin on

the sparkling rays

river flowing

above your breasts

such a beauty

I`ve never seen

Tamar,

I know he will kill me

I know it`s a sin

to follow you here.

my blood is weak

my bones are weak

in front of view

of your face,

Hold me,

i came to smell

your hair,

you fragrance neck

Tamar,

in sweet sin

I come inside you

and die.

Cat 3 : Girlfriends

I had a girl friend cat -

would she be

sweet like me

harsh like me

spoiled like me.

She had a girl friend cat-

Could I be

strong like she is

patient like she is

charming like she is

I had a girl friend cat -

Would she be

dark like me

mysterious like me

attractive like me

She had a girl friend cat

could I be

loving like she is

smiling like she is

powerful like she is,

She had a girl friend cat

Would she be

sexy like me

tasty like me

lovable like me

I had a girl friend cat

Could I miau like her

could she moan like me?

Cat 2 : Sleeping

For you just

I`m sleeping

hanging with

my head down-

For you just -

I`m eating

all cherries

with the core,

For you just

I don`t read

the Bible,

I`m playing with

toys when you

are not at home,

For you just -

I have blood

on my lips

instead of lipstick

For you just

I`m calling no one

at nights,

For you just

I love sucking

mint bonbons

from you pocket,

For you just

I`m lost in my

sleep alone.

I`m drinking

my milk without

hearing your voice,

For you just

I`m so calm and

quiet,

with lovely fur,

I have a cat-mask

just to need me

when you come

in my bed,

For you just

I was singing, but

my voice become

sick,

many times

For you just

I was eating ice

and fire

and still you

are not satisfied.

Cat : Freedom

Braking,
smashing
glasses,
stones falling
from the pile
Free choices
Free lovers
Free death
In my chains
I feel so free
No pain, no blood
I`m so free

In my screams
you feel freedom

With your hands
catching my throat
you feel free
I`m so absent
in my freedom-
I`m lost in pain
in the pleasure
of my Red freedom,
I`m in the free
spaceof the cage
I`m not a bird
I`m a cat,
fell in trap
I love my prisoners
free space
My pillow is marked
with your footsteps
My pillow is marked
with sign of my
blood.
I love my Prison.

You are so obsessed
with your sky -
you fly and its
never enough for you
You are so obsessed
with my pain,
sadness
misfortune
You can`t release yourself
as a bird,
you are flying with
closed eyes in
Red sky

Obsession.
Why dont you look
down ?
you need to take me
out of my prison
to your painful
Red sky,
But you didn`t
tell me how to fly?
You want me to be
a bird,
you are scared
to be cat like me
But you never
could be really
f r e e.